After 34 years, I finally read the letter. Thank you A-!
That was really sweet, I don't really know you but I like you. Thank you for taking the time to write it and for your kind words.
It is really weird because when I read something from the past, I know that I have had some sort of encounter with it in the past, and I wonder what my reaction was and all that. But if I was dead, and you didn't know, and I know for sure I haven't read it before in this life... then I' m reading it for the first time.
Tuesday 17 September 2013
Saturday 7 September 2013
Some people don't die?
I was going to post it on CPL... but I won't.
I'm not sure if this is really a question, feel free to move it or delete it as you please. I guess I just feel the need to write. Why here? I don't know. I know that my ideas are pretty unpopular in this forum and nobody will agree with what I say, probably because they won't be able to relate. Sometimes we feel different from everyone else to then find "our group" and realize we were not really that different. Well, even though I share many characteristics with reincarnates from my time period, and I also share characteristics with believers in reincarnation in general,in some other aspects I'm probably different, and even though maybe some people will understand it,I wonder how many would actually be able to apply it to themselves.
We can only talk from our experience, everything we say in life is subjective, because we are subjects, and we might think we are being objective but it's not possible. I often said in this place that we don't change from life to life, that life is a continuum, that is not a "new blank life", that we are not a different person. Of course nobody ever agrees with me and tries to disprove me. Maybe for the majority of people then IT IS like that and I'm the weirdo.
I just can't see it, it does not apply to me. Dying means change. I said from the beginning "Death is only a new passport and a plastic surgery". When people try to convince me they say "Don't you think the environment in this life plays a big role in you being a new person? having a new family?" What environment exactly? the exact same place in Argentina you mean? as for new family are we referring to my Italian pretty fascist parents? Don't get me wrong, they are really nice and supportive, but judging from their ideas I could have pretty well have chosen them in the 70's. As for historical times, things are different than they were in the 30's, but things are not that different from what they were in the 70's. Specially in South America, there is no dictatorship now (kinda) but there is always the economic crisis, there is always the insecurity and etc etc. So no, I don't think the environment and the family matters at all... It can for other people, but for me, it didn't do anything! I think being in this country is one of my big pl issues... feels like a joke, but I guess is my fault for choosing it.
To that we have to add my own personality, I' m adverse to change, I have always been. I think it's even written in a report by my Kindergarten teacher. I'm conservative and I like the way things were done before, even if it's impractical and it takes longer. I' m also rigid, its hard to change my mind.
Two months ago I was having some sort of past life issues and I thought that maybe I was having a hard time accepting my past life. Somebody of trust told me then "Maybe the problem is not that you cannot accept your past, maybe the problem is that you cannot accept the future life (present). If you cannot accept the past is because to you its not the past, its still THIS life" . And I think she is right, I don't really acknowledge death. I know that technically I died and that I reborn, but I don't really apprehend it. It means nothing to me because nothing really changed (technically a few things did, but despite that I'm still always "On guard" about it). To me somehow we still are in 1972 or something, I KNOW we are not, but I don't FEEL it.
Is it a problem? I am not too sure actually. Do I want to change? No because I never want to change. But it does make me feel weird sometimes. When people say things to you now and it's the same things other people were saying about you 40 years ago it's a strange feeling to say the least. This is perhaps one of the reasons why I'm so recognizable and "felt" by people who knew me, because it's probably really easy.
And since I can anticipate that this post may raise some eyebrows and since I cannot move past the 70's and I feel the need to defend myself somehow, I have to say "I was not bad", difficult yes, but not bad, nobody who knew me at a personal level said that I was, and whatever happened when political situations in the world were different doesn't mean it has to happen again.
I'm not sure if this is really a question, feel free to move it or delete it as you please. I guess I just feel the need to write. Why here? I don't know. I know that my ideas are pretty unpopular in this forum and nobody will agree with what I say, probably because they won't be able to relate. Sometimes we feel different from everyone else to then find "our group" and realize we were not really that different. Well, even though I share many characteristics with reincarnates from my time period, and I also share characteristics with believers in reincarnation in general,in some other aspects I'm probably different, and even though maybe some people will understand it,I wonder how many would actually be able to apply it to themselves.
We can only talk from our experience, everything we say in life is subjective, because we are subjects, and we might think we are being objective but it's not possible. I often said in this place that we don't change from life to life, that life is a continuum, that is not a "new blank life", that we are not a different person. Of course nobody ever agrees with me and tries to disprove me. Maybe for the majority of people then IT IS like that and I'm the weirdo.
I just can't see it, it does not apply to me. Dying means change. I said from the beginning "Death is only a new passport and a plastic surgery". When people try to convince me they say "Don't you think the environment in this life plays a big role in you being a new person? having a new family?" What environment exactly? the exact same place in Argentina you mean? as for new family are we referring to my Italian pretty fascist parents? Don't get me wrong, they are really nice and supportive, but judging from their ideas I could have pretty well have chosen them in the 70's. As for historical times, things are different than they were in the 30's, but things are not that different from what they were in the 70's. Specially in South America, there is no dictatorship now (kinda) but there is always the economic crisis, there is always the insecurity and etc etc. So no, I don't think the environment and the family matters at all... It can for other people, but for me, it didn't do anything! I think being in this country is one of my big pl issues... feels like a joke, but I guess is my fault for choosing it.
To that we have to add my own personality, I' m adverse to change, I have always been. I think it's even written in a report by my Kindergarten teacher. I'm conservative and I like the way things were done before, even if it's impractical and it takes longer. I' m also rigid, its hard to change my mind.
Two months ago I was having some sort of past life issues and I thought that maybe I was having a hard time accepting my past life. Somebody of trust told me then "Maybe the problem is not that you cannot accept your past, maybe the problem is that you cannot accept the future life (present). If you cannot accept the past is because to you its not the past, its still THIS life" . And I think she is right, I don't really acknowledge death. I know that technically I died and that I reborn, but I don't really apprehend it. It means nothing to me because nothing really changed (technically a few things did, but despite that I'm still always "On guard" about it). To me somehow we still are in 1972 or something, I KNOW we are not, but I don't FEEL it.
Is it a problem? I am not too sure actually. Do I want to change? No because I never want to change. But it does make me feel weird sometimes. When people say things to you now and it's the same things other people were saying about you 40 years ago it's a strange feeling to say the least. This is perhaps one of the reasons why I'm so recognizable and "felt" by people who knew me, because it's probably really easy.
And since I can anticipate that this post may raise some eyebrows and since I cannot move past the 70's and I feel the need to defend myself somehow, I have to say "I was not bad", difficult yes, but not bad, nobody who knew me at a personal level said that I was, and whatever happened when political situations in the world were different doesn't mean it has to happen again.
Monday 22 July 2013
The era of technology and the internet
I love it, I post it online and guess what? It belongs to humanity. You can´t sell it, anyone can read it, anyone can download it. It´s not part of the S****** capitalist system anymore. People die and things are saved, and then posted again, you´ll thank me in your next life Tucker for saving your story. People delete, people are just stupid.
People are fucking capitalist pigs only eager for the fucking money... TRANSCRIPT, TRANSLATE AND PUBLISH... don´t even transcript and translate if you don´t want, just fucking publish it!!!!! make it available.WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR????
People are fucking capitalist pigs only eager for the fucking money... TRANSCRIPT, TRANSLATE AND PUBLISH... don´t even transcript and translate if you don´t want, just fucking publish it!!!!! make it available.WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR????
Tuesday 5 February 2013
Diets
I' m starting to think that I can do any diet with no problems as long as: 1) I don' t starve 2) I don' t have to prepare the meals. If I would follow all those things that they recommend I would be cooking the entire fucking day! not to mention all the money I would have to spend in all these different foods. Why can' t people just think of REALISTIC diets? When you cook something and you can keep eating out of it for days, or that it doesn' t involve weird ingredients. Really, I don' t care that much what I eat as long as it fills me up and it' s easy to make. Maybe the best diet is to be extremely busy and not having time to eat (and not be at home)
Tuesday 18 December 2012
One word makes the difference
I woke up today with a song in my mind by Tan Biónica called los Graduados, I had listened to it on a graduation ceremony for elementary school the day before. What I liked and I retained in my head was the chorus, that for me it said "Y aunque duermo poco, sueño cada noche mejor" (and even though I don't sleep much, I dream better every night) ... I really liked it, I thought I could feel identified in a way, for me that sentence means that even though you can have an extremely busy life you are having better dreams of the future, you're flying high, you're doing all this for a reason, the more you do the more aims and goals that you have.
I just listened to that song again and checked up the lyrics... it actually says "Y aunque duermo poco, sueño cada noche con vos" (and even though I don't sleep much I dream every night about you) ... how LAME, it's just another empty love song... I like my version way better.
I just listened to that song again and checked up the lyrics... it actually says "Y aunque duermo poco, sueño cada noche con vos" (and even though I don't sleep much I dream every night about you) ... how LAME, it's just another empty love song... I like my version way better.
Sunday 25 November 2012
living in (this life) past or in (this life) present/future
Seems like more often than we think we have to choose if to make a decision for the past or for the present/ future (I put them together because what we make in the present is what we're going to remember in the future, the present dictates the future, so does the past, but that's a past we already know, in the present time we build things). Anyways, I was wondering the other day before going to sleep what to do, option 1 was to read a book, option 2 was to try to remember a whole episode of the Simpsons. One option was for the past, the other for the future. I ended up just sleeping, but this whole issue got in my head. Even though pretty much anything we do can change the future or make us think different, some actions are strictly past related, for example:
1. Looking at photographs or yourself or your relatives.
2. Listen to music you already know
3. Watching a movie you have already seen
4. Reading a book you have already read
5. Playing a videogame you have already beat
6. Think about your life in a non philosophical/psychological way
7. Cook something you already know how to make
So all these actions what they have in common is that we're trying to re-create feelings or emotions that are in the past, even though I know that you can always find something new in what you thought it was old, but it's not the same to play a new game than to play an old one over and over again. You remember the past when the past is new, you don't remember the past when you are trying to re-live it. For example, I might remember the first time I watched a movie but not necessarily all the times I watched it after that, except something important happened in those times besides the movie itself.
1. Looking at photographs or yourself or your relatives.
2. Listen to music you already know
3. Watching a movie you have already seen
4. Reading a book you have already read
5. Playing a videogame you have already beat
6. Think about your life in a non philosophical/psychological way
7. Cook something you already know how to make
So all these actions what they have in common is that we're trying to re-create feelings or emotions that are in the past, even though I know that you can always find something new in what you thought it was old, but it's not the same to play a new game than to play an old one over and over again. You remember the past when the past is new, you don't remember the past when you are trying to re-live it. For example, I might remember the first time I watched a movie but not necessarily all the times I watched it after that, except something important happened in those times besides the movie itself.
Saturday 24 November 2012
There' s nobody there
Does anyone remember the scene in Cinema Paradiso where he goes back to the cinema as an adult but it' s destroyed? Something similar might happen with pl places, but I just realized about it. I was reading a newspaper and this thought came "Why are you reading this? there' s nobody there anymore", there' s nothing, nobody, empty, dead, why should I care? I know that the cinema is destroyed but I still see it how it was before.
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